This blog is a journal of sorts for me. For the next 12 weeks I'm doing a complete overhaul of myself. The actual start of this 12 week "journey" will begin on Monday August 4. For now this will be open to the for all to read, but if I decide to share more personal struggles, I will make this private. We'll have to see how it goes. . .
This "overhaul"/ "makeover" is to improve myself in three areas that are lacking. The first being my spiritual self. Majorly (is that a word?) lacking here. I plan on daily scripture study - personal and with my children. And of course daily, heartfelt prayers. I know how important this is in my life, but lately it's taken the back burner. Most things in my life have been set aside. I seem to have put myself into SURVIVAL MODE, and now I'm ready to start living, not just surviving. Life seems to be flying by, and I'm missing out on some special moments and opportunities in this mode.
The second area, is my physical self. This area hasn't just been set aside, more like thrown as far away as possible. There are so many excuses I can come up with each day. But it's just got to stop. I just haven't had the drive to do that, up until now. As I've watched Nathan train for a triathlon the last 4 months, I have seen him change in so many (good) ways. It has been inspiring! I'm not training for anything big right now, we'll wait till after the 12 weeks for that.
And last, but not least is the area deep, deep down inside me. My mental (lack of better word) state. I've been a mess for about 4-5 months. I've had postpartum depression (not the big scary depression, just mild stuff), and have really had a hard time dealing with just about everything. I keep waiting for things to get better, and slowly they are, but it's time to take some action. I truly hope that if I'm doing more for myself spiritually and physically, mentally I'll be much much better.
So, that's the scoop, the prelude to my journey. I hope I can do this. Twelve weeks is a long time, I know, but with a little help I think I can do it. What has really brought this all on is that my birthday is in 4 months. I'll be turning 30. To some that seems rather young, and to others (like my little brother and sister) that seems REALLY OLD! :) I'm actually rather excited for my 30's. I've heard many, many people tell me that their 30's were great. I think mine will be too. But, on my birthday this year, I want to feel great about who I am. It's my hope that this 12 week overhaul will help me be able to do that. I want to start this next decade of my life on a good foundation, and continue to build on it. That's my plan. So, check back, I really hope to post here often about the ups and downs of these goals I'm setting for myself. Wish me luck . . .
